And I always tell her there is nothing she can't do.
It may take more time or effort but hey, why not go for it? there is nothing to lose.
And so it has become a habit that she follows almost the whole curriculum the others do (no judging here, other kids in her special class don't follow the reg. class curriculum but study what they are comfy with).
I find that what she struggles the most is keeping her patience to put in the effort because she doesn't see why she has to learn what she does. She learns because for the sake of pleasing me is what I think.
In the beginning I used to think what a good girl!
But now.... I feel like "that shouldn't be the reason why she does this!".
I don't think she would be an academic in the future, I don't think she will go through the regular path to reach whatever she becomes or not in the future (I know the potential is there but unfortunately the path will be a unique one since not everybody will accept her at the current state of the society where they see autistic people as incomplete).
If this is so, shouldn't she be focusing on what she is good at? instead of learning how to divide and multiply fractions?
She can talk far more than what I expected she will from 5 years ago. But it's nothing close to girls her age. Her comprehension of the world is unique and the spectrum of her vision or focus starts else where than others and ends else where of others again. It's as if she is a foreigner to this world.
She needs much guidance but she happily tries to work around it, try to do what others do.. but I know it's a pain because her head tells her that's what not her world is about. It's like slowing and painfully bending her so that she fits in the box one day. Tsk tsk...
Do I make any sense?
I am just babbling on what I feel and understand what I see from her.
What I am trying to say is.... should she be learning more arts outside of the school and even shorten school time if I was to be exagerate it... I even have doubts when I think of Kumon that she does.
She puts in an hour to two on it everyday. she puts another on her home work then another half an hour to her piano practice everyday... it's starting to be a lot like a routine.
I would not talk about this if she enjoyed it but I know she doesn't.
I know she would rather spend the day watching youtube and play games on her wiiU if that was allowed. (I rather her do Kumon if she was going to play wiiU though)
What am I saying here?
(excuse me, I will get there soon)
I think what I want to say is that I want to be able to arrange her little time after school till she goes to sleep in a more useful way... compactly educational, and widely creative.
Then I get a stab in the side of my brain..
How do I achieve that... I will have to plan something.
But now.... I feel like "that shouldn't be the reason why she does this!".
I don't think she would be an academic in the future, I don't think she will go through the regular path to reach whatever she becomes or not in the future (I know the potential is there but unfortunately the path will be a unique one since not everybody will accept her at the current state of the society where they see autistic people as incomplete).
If this is so, shouldn't she be focusing on what she is good at? instead of learning how to divide and multiply fractions?
She can talk far more than what I expected she will from 5 years ago. But it's nothing close to girls her age. Her comprehension of the world is unique and the spectrum of her vision or focus starts else where than others and ends else where of others again. It's as if she is a foreigner to this world.
She needs much guidance but she happily tries to work around it, try to do what others do.. but I know it's a pain because her head tells her that's what not her world is about. It's like slowing and painfully bending her so that she fits in the box one day. Tsk tsk...
Do I make any sense?
I am just babbling on what I feel and understand what I see from her.
What I am trying to say is.... should she be learning more arts outside of the school and even shorten school time if I was to be exagerate it... I even have doubts when I think of Kumon that she does.
She puts in an hour to two on it everyday. she puts another on her home work then another half an hour to her piano practice everyday... it's starting to be a lot like a routine.
I would not talk about this if she enjoyed it but I know she doesn't.
I know she would rather spend the day watching youtube and play games on her wiiU if that was allowed. (I rather her do Kumon if she was going to play wiiU though)
What am I saying here?
(excuse me, I will get there soon)
I think what I want to say is that I want to be able to arrange her little time after school till she goes to sleep in a more useful way... compactly educational, and widely creative.
Then I get a stab in the side of my brain..
How do I achieve that... I will have to plan something.
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