the antenna in me

I finally finished a branding project for a local speech therapist.
It came out quite lovely. The whole process was very politely handled, especially in terms of communicating with the client. He never stopped being polite and always thought ahead of how I would feel when he said anything. This is not a norm in my work. Most clients think they can remote control me pretty roughly when I design for them. I am supposed to shut my mouth and comply but it usually finishes with a stomach ache.

I believe I have a this parabola dish antenna in me that helps to catch a person's "want" and "needs" when they ask me to design for them. I usually keep it 'on' so that I don't waste time turning it on (yes it is old style, it doesn't turn on in a sec). This way I can catch and store lots of inspirations through thing I see and feel in my everyday life and it helps when I have to design something.

You see, having this antenna turned 'on' has its own problems too.
When ppl say ugly things, it's a double blow. Let me rephrase that, "it hurts a lot".
When ugly things happen while the antenna is "off" (which is rare) it doesn't hurt as much.

I believe I only manage to design and give what my clients like if I have the antenna "on" but keep it "on" has its own price. Being hurt too easily .... then I crawl into my own space and recuperate and come out to the world again when I am better.

Sounds weird? it's how I roll.