unjust

Just a rant. Here I go.
I have had almost no knowledge about autism before I started to suspect my girl has it.
And since then, the diagnosis has confirmed it and it has taken me the path of feeling down, rejecting the truth then feeling down, then started to accepting more and more and studying to see what I can do to help her. It's been about 5 years now.

Today Leigh's school principal called me in saying they did their yearly assessment and had to confirm that her autism is clearly there that would require her to stay in Special class.
It's an yearly thing they do in case the child is ready to go to the normal class.

Today I felt helpless and really down having heard the school say this to me. I know she has autism, and I am more accepting about the fact than ever.

It's because I have been living my everyday as it is, working around our disability.
Somehow I was so used to it, I no longer felt bad about it and most important of all, happy with the over all life and what little improvements Leigh made gave me hope for her future.

But the principal blunting out the word autism the way he did really hurt me.
I felt like we were the odd one out that needed fixing. If we need fixing, does it mean we are broken?
Absolutely not. Being autistic is not just broken. It also magnifies the gift within the child but they never mention it.

I also talked to the principal about the possibility of placing Leigh in the regular science class since I found out that she can follow a lot of it when I have been teaching her. The principal looked at me dumb founded as if saying "have you been hearing what I said? I said your child has autism and she needs to be in the Special class! not in the regular class". Then he quietly said he'd think about it and see what would be best.

I am so sick and tired of this country putting aside autistic children as if they are unfit to be educated.
All I can do is complain to them, suggest things to them, write them and educate my child at home after school as I am doing.... :(